Tuesday, February 17, 2009

After a year you would think....

After a year of being changed severl times a day, frequent baths and daily outfit changes you would thing one might grow accustom to this routine. No such luck. Allen is over a year old now. I have changed his diaper, clothes, and bathed him often. And ever since he was able to protest he has done so! I am amazed my arms arent the size of the Hulk's as much as I strain to keep him from leaving and flailing at me! Even after a year of naps he still screams everytime I lay him down. He is just not getting the idea that screaming doesnt make me stop changing your diaper or clothes. Screaming doesnt keep you from being clean. And screaming certainly doesnt let you stay up late!

Ever since he was formed he has been a "ticky" child. He hated being touched, prodded and messed with in-womb. Every time they would use the doppler probe on my stomach to find his heart beat he would lead them on a chase. He would leave that location and escape to another. It was like a race all over my stomach. Often they would just give up as along as they heard a beat or two of his heart. I guess they figured, hes active and has a heart beat hes good! LOL!!! During ultrasounds he would turn his back to us. Never would he show us his face. There for a while I wondered if he had one! We surprised him though! I had an ultrasound on a friday and another on the following Monday. On Friday he hid from us as usual. On Monday he wasnt expecting us back so soon! We got to see his face and apparently he was in shock we had returned for a view into is his little world because his eyes and mouth were wide open! LOL!!! We laughed!!!! And once he was discovered he was good and let us even get a side profile pic. YAY!!!!! Way to go Allen!

At birth again the "dont mess with me" syndrome kicked in. He went into distress and everytime they would mess with him the following 4 days in the NICU he would get upset, his blood pressure would rise, his oxygen would drop and he would grunt and growl at them. But inbetween "touch times" he was fine. We told them he doesnt like being touched but they werent keen on listening to us. Finally one nurse did and put a note in his file. They almost wouldnt release him on day four, his blood pressure wouldnt go down. So I said put the cuff on him and walk away for a bit come back and then test him. And guess what happened? He got to go home! And to this day nothing has changed! He still hates to be messed with. Am I doomed for life time of "dont touch me!" Will he ever get married and bless me with grandbabies? One would say hes only 1 he has plenty of time to grow and change. Lets just hope that happens for my sake, and his future wife's LOL!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Stupid much? (Just a rant and vent post)

Can someone tell me where in the world does reality end and fairy land starts with credit companys. We are in a recession, our banks are folding because people everywhere are defaulting on their accounts and are losing money like crazy. But a customer calls with an offer to settle the account and they say nope! Your not delinquent enough? Come again???? Not delinquent ENOUGH? Are you kidding me!?!?! I have paid on a credit card for 8 years and the amount I have spent is over 4 times the amount of the total amount of credit on the card! I call to settle and they say there isnt a settlement offer at this time. LOL!!!! This is what I get for being a good citizen paying my credit card like I should. How stupid is that! So now what do I do? Just refuse to pay until they are willing to settle? That way I'm delinquent enough? UGH! I just dont get it! I am offering them 60% of the total amount due and they say nope! Until then They will call me 7-8 times a day asking for their monthly payment. Harassment much???? Sorry for the rant but come on this is completely ridiculous, is it not????

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Counting my blessings

You know what? Its time to have a warm, fuzzy, happy blog entry dont you think? Because here at my home the sun is shining, my daughter is playing happily behind me, Allen FINALLY fell asleep and I have Casting Crowns playing in the background. All the makings of a peaceful moment to sit and collect my thoughts. Wont you join me????

I am very happy to be where I am right now. I have been so blessed lately. After a couple of years of burdens that were VERY hard to carry and get through we are finally feeling lighter. As I sit here realizing how awesome life is for me right now, I cant help but smile! Here's the blessings that God has blessed me with:(besides my great family)

God has blessed us with a chance to have financial peace! For the first time in 2 years we are on our way to being back on our feet! And it feels great!

I feel God calling me into serving at church. It feels great to know that God has chosen me to do something in his name.

God has blessed me with a great friend that is very special to me. I haven't had a close friend since high school and luckily we still talk from time to time(yes you lil' bit). I love having a friend to talk to and hang out with. And to be showered with taco salads! LOL!!! I love her so much! She is like a sister to me and I know that it was part of God's plan for me. And I am so very thankful to him for that. I never had a close friend like that....that wasnt some how related to me. Dont worry Gwen I still consider you a great friend!

God has blessed me with children to watch during the week, for extra money, that are awesome kids! A sweet lil baby girl that comes to hang out a few days a week. A boy that is alot like Rose and fun to have over. Sometimes we have a classmate of Rose's come over to play at times too and shes a joy to have over. And it just works out perfectly for our schedule! I still have chances to get out of the house at times and attend story time at the library with just my lil ones. Its great. I couldn't work this out this well on my own. God is a great mathmatician.

I am being given opportunities to be a light for Christ and its great! I never thought I could do anything to serve him from my home. Because I never get out much, how can I share his word from my couch? Well he has been faithful to put chances in my path to share and its great!

So all in all life is wonderful right now, despite the illnesses that are constant attacking us. I am glad to be on the happier side of life after a couple of dark years. I am stronger and wiser and God is already using those years for good. How cool is that! I am so thankful to him and give him all the glory for what hes graced me with. I couldnt accomplish any of this if it werent for God in my life. I praise him! Thank you God!

But I cant help but be a little nervous about how long this great stuff will last. So human of me! LOL!!! I just have to keep telling myself to have faith!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Ok so its been a while

I know its been quite a millenium since I wrote last. And ending on such sad terms! How bad of me! I am so sorry! We got hit with a stomach bug that went from one person to the other in the house and it was almost never ending. Then sinus issues started so I just havent felt up to blogging. But I am here to say I am still alive and kickin'!

Allen just celebrated his first birthday! Oh the mixed emotions I feel about that one. Allen is our last baby. Well that WE have planned. But I know God can perform miracles. Anyways we arent expecting to expand the family anymore and I am both happy and sad at the thought of it. I am sad to know that my last baby is no longer a little baby. I think he grew to fast. I was pregnant for 2 years with him (it seemed that way anyway) and now hes pulling up on everything and eating cheeseburgers and drinking milk from a sippy cup. But at the same time, its great to know that part of my life is done. No more waking up ever 2 hours to nurse and change diapers just to be peed on in the dark. Actually, I am extremely eager to start the next chapter in my journey along life's path. I am ready to see what awaits me past the life of babies! No diapers! No buckling seat belts! The day I get to get in the car with the family and not have to buckle anyone but me will be a day of Angels singing! Now I am not that naive to think its going to get easier. No I do expect new challenges. Challenges I have no clue that are coming and how to handle them. You see my sister was 7 when I married and moved out. So my experience only goes to seven. Which just so happens to be Rose's age. So I am reaching the era of mystery. Exciting and nerve wracking yes! But I am ready to go!

I also feel God pulling me into action at church in the nursery dept. I feel led to do more then just my duty every 6 weeks with the one year olds. I am ready to take on more responsiblity. Not sure exactly where hes leading me but I am excited to see where it is. So much is changing in my little world here. And I feel overjoyed to take it all on.

We are going through a class at church for our finances. "Financial Peace University" by Dave Ramsey. LOVE IT! We are such money losers! LOL!!! But now we are on the track to being blessed! See? God is busy working alot in my home. I am on the brink of living a life totally unfamiliar to me. And its refreshing! Wish me luck as we go down the new path of life!

Oh! Here's a few pics of Allen's b-day celebration. If you feel the urge to whistle the Smurf's theme just know you arent alone! :)