Im so very grumbly tonight

I know that I probably sound really selfish but I really feel taken advantage of. I am working from home, babysitting several children. I work myself to near exhaustion taking care of all the kids that come to my home. Then around 6pm everynight all the kids that dont belong to me have gone home and its time for me to clean, make dinner and repair damage done from the day. Then I need to clean up after dinner get the house ready for the next day. I use to be able to conquer most of it. Now that my child count has increased its really hard to work from 630 am until after 8pm everyday. I haven't had any increase in help. My DH still gets to come home after work everday and play is online game all evening. Come out, eat dinner, then go back to playing until bed. The fight that every Stay at home mom and Working dad will never be won. Often the fight turns to "well then go back to work, and we will split the house duties" Except I have worked outside the home and duties were never split. So how come I do all this work and its ok for him to come home and not step up and help out. UGH!!!!!!!! I feel so used and underappreciated!

SHE LIVES!

Thats right folks, I do live! I am still here in cyber space somewhere! Its been a LONG 2009. I know I never came back and reported on Rose's results and Im sure you have all been beating your heads against the screens, screaming "WHy hasnt she told us? We cant sleep til we know!" Good news guys, shes fine. Her tests came back normal. You can now sleep in peace tonight knowing I finally told you shes healthy.

Allen will be 2 VERY soon and we are in denial of that truth.

Faith is in Kindergarten and loving it!

Rose is loving the 3rd grade. We started her on some ADD meds and it has done amazing things for her in school.

I am staying quite busy with childcare to help with finances. I have 4 kids on my roster for now. Another one will be born in just a couple of days! Very excited! I get my baby fix and I still get to sleep at night. And I get paid for it! How cool is that!

We did get 2 kittens for Rose and Faith. They love them. I love them. Charles, not so much. But hes getting use to them. He has is good days and his bad days. But we still have them so it must say something for his patience and love for his family.

All in all life has carried on and not alot of excitement has gone on. Just the usual living with 3 kids and watch tons more action going on.

I will try not to be a stranger. I hope you all have had a great holiday season. Happy New Year may 2010 be the best yet!

Still going.....

Just felt like I needed to stop by and say I am still here. Still busy, but doing well. Faith has had her kidney and ureters and bladder checked out by a urologist. The double ureter is not a concern and requires no special attention. But we have discovered that Faith doesnt empty her bladder or bowels completely. So now we are in the process of re-training her bladder and bowels to empty completely. She apparently became the Kegel Queen while potty training. She was so caught up in playing and stuff that as she was potty training she wouldnt empty her bladder. She would just go enough to feel better and stop and go back and play. So her bladder became use to it and that is how it operates now. Those muscles contract and wont allow anymore urine to pass. So she has to potty every 2 hours and take a couple of things to help move her bowels along. So far so good. We go back in July and see how it worked. Hopefully it will be fixed and she can start Kindergarten with no special instructions.

We go soon to the Cardiologist for Rose to review her holter test. I dont expect to hear anything

about it. I expect to drive all the way there and they say she looks great! So that will be a waste of my time and Rose's school time. But better off safe then sorry.

My SIL had her surgery! And soon she will be free of all the extra medical things she has attached to her. I will take her tomorrow to get one of them removed. She will be good as new by the end of next week. Not quick enough for her but she will get there. Good news!!! Her hubby is finally back at work! We are so happy for them! 2 of their cats had kittens and I think we are going to get 2 of them. One for each of our daughters. That way we wont have to deal with fighting over the one pet.

My CBF(crazy best friend)'s daughter had spine surgery and is doing great! Soon my CBF will be back at work and I might be able to have lunch with her again. I am going through CBF withdrawl! I miss her lots. I have gone to see them and once because things are busy here and its hard to get over there to see them. I have spoken to her on the phone lots but it doesnt equal spending time with her. Shes such a great friend!

Allen has cut the top 2 k-9 teeth. Now we are waiting on the bottom ones. He seems to be feeling better. But he has learned how screaming and screeching makes his mom cringe and gets what he wants. So thats been a lot of fun to deal with. Not sure how are going to get past this. Just another challenge of motherhood.

The girls had a performance at church and Rose was a Lioness. SO CUTE!!! And Faith got to sing with her class before the performance. It was great! I have it on dvd now. But the quality isnt all that great. Oh well, thats what you get when you use an ancient 8 yr old dinosaur video camera to tape it! LOL!!! I did get some pics though. Enjoy them and I will write again when I can....

Its been a LOOONNNGGG while

Ok so its been a while since I stopped by my blog. I havent forgotten that I had one. I just got quite busy with life in general. Its like Allen hit a year old and the rest is history. Life just got hectic after that.

Lets see, whats been going on you say? Well it all started with me, Charles and Faith getting UTI's. Then Faith's dr thought it would be good if she went to the childrens hospital for an indepth exam of her urinary tract and all its little happy parts to see if she had bladder reflux. They did an ultrasound and also inserted a catheter and injected dye. Took lots of xrays during this part. We have her meds so she would be loopy and pretty much forget the whole experience. Now if only mommy could have had some of that! We found out a few days later that Megan didnt have reflux but did have double ureters. Which means she has to tubes on her kidney going to her bladder instead of one. So we are set to go back and do the scans all over again I think. And see what the urologist wants to do about it. Hopefully they will want to just watch her and see how she is in the future. If it starts to be a problem then she may have to have one of them removed. That is nerve wracking!!!

Next is Rose. She has been complaining lately of not being able to breathe through her mouth. And of her chest hurting at times and also her stomach. A couple of times she has mentioned her heart beating fast. So she is set to go to the Cardiologist to double check and make sure all is well with her. Sounds like maybe she has a heart murmur and its acting up. I have one and I have similar symptoms when mine acts up. So more to follow about that one.

Allen is teething. All 4 of his k-9 teeth at one time. And he is none to happy about it at the moment. He isnt sleeping well. I dont think he has slept through the night in a couple of weeks. He is very clingy. Allen has always been a mama's boy but Allen is especially clingy these past couple of weeks. Not sure what exactly is going on with him but I know hes not sick. So thats a good sign.

So thats the lastest on my children. Now for the rest of my family...

Charles' grandmother suffered with cancer and is now feeling great in the arms of God. The place she strived for her whole life here on earth. She deserves it! I hope shes telling God good things about us here on Earth. We miss her lots. We dont cry for her so much as we cry for the ones left behind and the ones who miss her terribly. God is the great comforter and I know he will bless this family.

Charles' brother in law is on week 11 I think of no job. The economy really needs to pick up. But I think God is using this time as a blessing to the family because Charles' sister is having kidney troubles too! I think her and Faith just need to move in to a special room at the kidney hospital and be room buddies! LOL!!! But she is set to have surgery to remove a very stubborn kidney stone. The pain that has been involved just makes my heart ache for her. I cant wait til its all over for her and she can feel somewhat normal again.

Charles is having a hard time at work. Very stressful and he feels like hes not accomplishing much out of it. I try my best to make him feel better but lately it has had little to no effect. I think depression is starting to set in and it worries me. Its very hard to handle him situations like this. So pray for him.

Some good news though! I am now the Sunday School Director at church for the preschool hall. Love it! Would love it more if the Childrens Director would let go of the reins a bit more and let me do more. She has a hard time letting go of control. I understand that. So until she is comfortable I just sit back and let her jump in when ever she feels she needs to. Makes my job easier but then I feel like I am not doing as much. But in time it will all change. I am enjoying the time I get to spend with all the kids at church and getting to know them more. Instead of just a few kids I get to know and learn about all of them. COOL HUH?! Love it!!!

So thats kinda it for now. I am staying busy with my kids. Babysitting parttime for some older kids. Hoping to get some more soon.

I will try to write more often as things and time allow me to. Happy Spring!

After a year you would think....

After a year of being changed severl times a day, frequent baths and daily outfit changes you would thing one might grow accustom to this routine. No such luck. Allen is over a year old now. I have changed his diaper, clothes, and bathed him often. And ever since he was able to protest he has done so! I am amazed my arms arent the size of the Hulk's as much as I strain to keep him from leaving and flailing at me! Even after a year of naps he still screams everytime I lay him down. He is just not getting the idea that screaming doesnt make me stop changing your diaper or clothes. Screaming doesnt keep you from being clean. And screaming certainly doesnt let you stay up late!

Ever since he was formed he has been a "ticky" child. He hated being touched, prodded and messed with in-womb. Every time they would use the doppler probe on my stomach to find his heart beat he would lead them on a chase. He would leave that location and escape to another. It was like a race all over my stomach. Often they would just give up as along as they heard a beat or two of his heart. I guess they figured, hes active and has a heart beat hes good! LOL!!! During ultrasounds he would turn his back to us. Never would he show us his face. There for a while I wondered if he had one! We surprised him though! I had an ultrasound on a friday and another on the following Monday. On Friday he hid from us as usual. On Monday he wasnt expecting us back so soon! We got to see his face and apparently he was in shock we had returned for a view into is his little world because his eyes and mouth were wide open! LOL!!! We laughed!!!! And once he was discovered he was good and let us even get a side profile pic. YAY!!!!! Way to go Allen!

At birth again the "dont mess with me" syndrome kicked in. He went into distress and everytime they would mess with him the following 4 days in the NICU he would get upset, his blood pressure would rise, his oxygen would drop and he would grunt and growl at them. But inbetween "touch times" he was fine. We told them he doesnt like being touched but they werent keen on listening to us. Finally one nurse did and put a note in his file. They almost wouldnt release him on day four, his blood pressure wouldnt go down. So I said put the cuff on him and walk away for a bit come back and then test him. And guess what happened? He got to go home! And to this day nothing has changed! He still hates to be messed with. Am I doomed for life time of "dont touch me!" Will he ever get married and bless me with grandbabies? One would say hes only 1 he has plenty of time to grow and change. Lets just hope that happens for my sake, and his future wife's LOL!!!

Stupid much? (Just a rant and vent post)

Can someone tell me where in the world does reality end and fairy land starts with credit companys. We are in a recession, our banks are folding because people everywhere are defaulting on their accounts and are losing money like crazy. But a customer calls with an offer to settle the account and they say nope! Your not delinquent enough? Come again???? Not delinquent ENOUGH? Are you kidding me!?!?! I have paid on a credit card for 8 years and the amount I have spent is over 4 times the amount of the total amount of credit on the card! I call to settle and they say there isnt a settlement offer at this time. LOL!!!! This is what I get for being a good citizen paying my credit card like I should. How stupid is that! So now what do I do? Just refuse to pay until they are willing to settle? That way I'm delinquent enough? UGH! I just dont get it! I am offering them 60% of the total amount due and they say nope! Until then They will call me 7-8 times a day asking for their monthly payment. Harassment much???? Sorry for the rant but come on this is completely ridiculous, is it not????

Counting my blessings

You know what? Its time to have a warm, fuzzy, happy blog entry dont you think? Because here at my home the sun is shining, my daughter is playing happily behind me, Allen FINALLY fell asleep and I have Casting Crowns playing in the background. All the makings of a peaceful moment to sit and collect my thoughts. Wont you join me????

I am very happy to be where I am right now. I have been so blessed lately. After a couple of years of burdens that were VERY hard to carry and get through we are finally feeling lighter. As I sit here realizing how awesome life is for me right now, I cant help but smile! Here's the blessings that God has blessed me with:(besides my great family)

God has blessed us with a chance to have financial peace! For the first time in 2 years we are on our way to being back on our feet! And it feels great!

I feel God calling me into serving at church. It feels great to know that God has chosen me to do something in his name.

God has blessed me with a great friend that is very special to me. I haven't had a close friend since high school and luckily we still talk from time to time(yes you lil' bit). I love having a friend to talk to and hang out with. And to be showered with taco salads! LOL!!! I love her so much! She is like a sister to me and I know that it was part of God's plan for me. And I am so very thankful to him for that. I never had a close friend like that....that wasnt some how related to me. Dont worry Gwen I still consider you a great friend!

God has blessed me with children to watch during the week, for extra money, that are awesome kids! A sweet lil baby girl that comes to hang out a few days a week. A boy that is alot like Rose and fun to have over. Sometimes we have a classmate of Rose's come over to play at times too and shes a joy to have over. And it just works out perfectly for our schedule! I still have chances to get out of the house at times and attend story time at the library with just my lil ones. Its great. I couldn't work this out this well on my own. God is a great mathmatician.

I am being given opportunities to be a light for Christ and its great! I never thought I could do anything to serve him from my home. Because I never get out much, how can I share his word from my couch? Well he has been faithful to put chances in my path to share and its great!

So all in all life is wonderful right now, despite the illnesses that are constant attacking us. I am glad to be on the happier side of life after a couple of dark years. I am stronger and wiser and God is already using those years for good. How cool is that! I am so thankful to him and give him all the glory for what hes graced me with. I couldnt accomplish any of this if it werent for God in my life. I praise him! Thank you God!

But I cant help but be a little nervous about how long this great stuff will last. So human of me! LOL!!! I just have to keep telling myself to have faith!